"Furthermore, the monk reflects on this very body from the soles of the feet on up, from the crown of the head on down, surrounded by skin and full of various kinds of unclean things: 'In this body there are head hairs, body hairs, nails, teeth, skin, flesh, tendons, bones, bone marrow, kidneys, heart, liver, pleura, spleen, lungs, large intestines, small intestines, gorge, feces, bile, phlegm, pus, blood, sweat, fat, tears, skin-oil, saliva, mucus, fluid in the joints, urine.' Just as if a sack with openings at both ends were full of various kinds of grain — wheat, rice, mung beans, kidney beans, sesame seeds, husked rice — and a man with good eyesight, pouring it out, were to reflect, 'This is wheat. This is rice. These are mung beans. These are kidney beans. These are sesame seeds. This is husked rice'; in the same way, the monk reflects on this very body from the soles of the feet on up, from the crown of the head on down, surrounded by skin and
full of various kinds of unclean things: 'In this body there are head hairs, body hairs, nails, teeth, skin, flesh, tendons, bones, bone marrow, kidneys, heart, liver, pleura, spleen, lungs, large intestines, small intestines, gorge, feces, bile, phlegm, pus, blood, sweat, fat, tears, skin-oil, saliva, mucus, fluid in the joints, urine.' And as he remains thus heedful, ardent, & resolute, any memories & resolves related to the household life are abandoned, and with their abandoning his mind gathers & settles inwardly, grows unified & centered. This is how a monk develops mindfulness immersed in the body.
Kayagata-sati Sutta (MN 119)
Body Contemplation: A Study Guide prepared by Thanissaro Bhikkhu at www.accesstoinsight.org (probably the definitive source for Theravadan teachings)
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Monday, June 30, 2008
Mindfulness immersed in the body
Saturday, June 28, 2008
BP-mood
Mood - 6
I would rate my current mood at 6. I feel peaceful and calm perhaps slightly depressed. I can attribute at least part of this to events in my life. I am studying Buddhism in several ways - Reading, practice, videos (not strictly Busshist perhaps, but related). My sister has been away for a week now so I have been able to be at peace with nothing to get worked up about. I believe that I am on the path where I do not let myself react so much. I believe this because it had started to happen last week when I had a little epiphany and just surrendered to my life. This doesn't mean that the struggle does not go on of course.
"Knowing yourself deeply has nothing to do with whatever ideas are floating around in your mind. Knowing yourself is to be rooted in Being and not lost in your mind."
Thursday, June 26, 2008
bp-mood
Note: I will start using a scale of 1 - 10 with 1 being suicidal depression and 10 being fantastically elated
Mood Scale # 7 - I feel pretty good. It is a little after 10 and I have accomplished several things already that I can feel good about accomplishing. I look forward to therapy. I am watching the Oprah/Tolle series on youtube. It is quite helpful. Almost nothing that does not agree with my Zen practice. Perhaps nothing at all.
the present
From Oprah Winfrey and Eckhart Tolle's Series, "A New Earth".
"Nothing has happened in the past that can prevent you from being in the present now - and if the past can not prevent you from being in the present now, what power does it have?"
Eckhart Tolle
How can this not be true by anyone's thinking?
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
bp-mood
Moods
To support that kind of healing it is important that I track my moods - since bp is a mood disorder. I will start nothing them at fairly regular periods and I will tag and title them with "bp-mood" to keep them seperate from other posts.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Daily Dharma
Stream of Thoughts
We tend to be particularly unaware that we are thinking virtually all the time. The incessant stream of thoughts flowing through our minds leaves us very little respite for inner quiet. And we leave precious little room for ourselves anyway just to be, without having to run around doing things all the time. Our actions are all too frequently driven rather than undertaken in awareness, driven by those perfectly ordinary thoughts and impulses that run through the mind like a coursing river, if not a waterfall. We get caught up in the torrent and it winds up submerging our lives as it carries us to places we may not wish to go and may not even realize we are headed for.
Meditation means learning how to get out of this current, sit by its bank and listen to it, learn from it, and then use its energies to guide us rather than to tyrannize us. This process doesn’t magically happen by itself. It takes energy. We call the effort to cultivate our ability to be in the present moment “practice” or “meditation practice.”
-- Jon Kabat-Zinn, Wherever You Go, There You Are
From Everyday Mind, a Tricycle book edited by Jean Smith
The "incessant stream of thoughts" does indeed drive my actions now. Since my thoughts tend to not only race but diverge onto multiple paths my actions tend to be few (the thoughts overwhelm me into inaction it often seems) and they tend to be uninformed by reality. In other words. I tend to say and sometimes do things that are not based on what is actually happening in my world. An example would by my misinterpretation of what someone has said to me so that I react in a defensive or aggressive manner. If I had either not given my interpretation of whatever the person had said any credence without checking to see if that is what they really meant, the resulting reaction from that person would not be so angry and confused.
My practice now consists of random moments of following my breath, reading books on Zen or related matter and the care of plants. These are good but not substitutes for a daily zazen routine. I want to go to my old pattern of two 30 minute sittings a day plus study and work practice (mindfulness in my actions).
Monday, June 23, 2008
Zazen
Dogen Zenji, Fukanzazengi
Doesn't each moment ask for the presentation of our life? Each time we can waste our time asking a different question, or we can "just practice." It is the study of what moves in moving, and what is still in stillness. --Bonnie Myotai Treace, "Will You Sit With Me?
This is from Triccyle's Daily Dharma. I am starting this blog by using quotes that I find useful and helpful in my practice.
So, to sit in Zazen is to sit and allow the stream of thoughts that are always present to just be - neither trying to stop them or following them to a "logical conclusion". To detach and watch out thoughts as we put our attention on our posture and our breath. I find it most difficult to not judge things as right or wrong. My process for now seems to be to catch myself judging things as good or bad and then moving on. Just noting that I am doing it. I can only have faith that, at some point, the judging will fall away.
There is always (or seems to be) two steps in my awareness during zazen and during daily life. I "do" and "act" in the world and then I note in thoughts what I have done. Along with the thoughts come feelings of course. so even when I am "just doing" (siting, breathing, walking) I notice that I am noticing that I am doing it and often judge it as a good or bad thing. Again, I assume this will fall away at it has in the past. Maybe this is something to bring up to Rubin.